"Depression" Lyrics By Dex.

 "Depression"

Lyrics By DAX

I can’t find myself

I get lost inside my brain

I think I might need help

But I pushed all of them way

I took cards they dealt

And there’s nothing I can change

So when I’m by myself 

I just pray for brighter days

Sometimes I sit and I reminisce 

bout the good times 

wish I could get those back

I keep on running these races 

that go in my mind 

then they go on these tracks 

I’m not ready to erase all my memories

I fight depression 

and I let it get the best of me 

now there’s nowhere to run, nowhere to go 

look around its liquor bottles all on the floor 

filling up the space 

inside my heart and my home 

drowning out these thoughts 

until they leave me alone

I can’t find myself

I get lost inside my brain

I think I might need help

But I pushed all of them way

I Took cards they dealt

And there’s nothing I can change

So when I’m by myself 

I just pray for brighter days

[Verse 2]

These thoughts are draining all my energy

I try to tell em to God 

they say i’m going insane

And then they recommended therapy

and to go and talk to a man 

who’s getting paid to explain

He started saying 

That the chemical imbalance is the reason that my brain ain’t connecting to accomplishments associated with moving on in life and past the things that my heart cannot contain

So the happiness won’t sustain 

Then he read me my options 

he said here goes a pill 

only take two with A meal 

and It’ll numb how I feel

I can’t find myself

I get lost inside my brain

I think I might need help

But I pushed all of them way

I Took cards they dealt

And there’s nothing I can change

So when I’m by myself 

I just pray for brighter days

Should I drown all these thoughts or should I leave them to float?

I got all of my flaws living inside of this boat

I’ve been anchored in pain 

the weight is making me choke

It’s getting harder to breathe 

it’s pulling right at my throat

I’ve been hoping for change but don’t know how to restart

they say you ain’t a man when you exposing your heart

Then they say you’re insane until it tears you apart

And then it cuts you so deep and they can tell by the scars

We can only see change when we accept who we are

Try to run from the shame and you will never get far

Don’t you bottle the pain 

or live your life in the dark

You’re meant break from those chains 

and shine as bright as a star

Don’t you ever tell yourself 

that your depression 

is the reason you won’t make it 

or that happiness is not in your cards 

with our God 

you can beat all the odds 

keep your faith and you’ll never get lost and say

I can’t find myself

I get lost inside my brain

I think I might need help

But I pushed all of them way

I Took cards they dealt

And there’s nothing I can change

So when I’m by myself 

I just pray for brighter days.